The messages to heaven

2010-06-06T20:54:00.000+08:00

Big sorry to all, well i find little motivation to write an entry today so i'll get back to you soon...

2010-04-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

End of chapter...
Well it has been a while since i last posted on my blog...haha don't think anyone would be reading this except for my grandma...well a lot had been happening and i don't have much time today, got lots of h.w to do catch up with ya tmr...
....Jaycee signing off...

2010-02-18T22:37:00.000+08:00

Well another Chinese New Year has come and gone but it doesn't seem to bother me though beside all the long boring holidays i've had this CNY. Well today was just another ordinary day to write about, having school as usual, detention for being late for the 2nd time[thought of climbing the gate to escape the long hrs of sitting in the boring class doing nothing for detention but felt that it was wrong so went by the main gate instead], biology remedial [asking questions and getting scoldings for everything] and basketball training [to escape from stress] all in one day well it's tiring but i got used to having all the programs squeezed into one day...well i just got my spectacles repaired and will be extra careful with this one, i promise :p haha i hope. Hmm this year can say is a do or die year but i hope that i can seek God more and change for the better. Well now it's study all the way till september yo!!! JIA YOUs to all having Major Exams!!

JJ signing off

2010-01-13T18:00:00.000+08:00

每一次伤心时，都会躺在天空下看着天上的云想着好的回忆。
应为只有这样我的眼泪才不会不知不觉地掉出来。。。

2010-01-05T00:25:00.000+08:00

GCYF camp 2009 Highlights

Credits to Rachel for doing this video, had lots of fun in the camp:)

2009-12-31T01:04:00.000+08:00

Wow, In an blink of an eye 2009 is coming to an end well i would like to take this opportunitiy to thank these people who had helped me through the year 2009:
Thank
-God whom all blessings flow
-Rachel who has been like a big sister to me
-Brenda aka BangalaDa
-Sarah aka BangalaRah
-CheeYang my little brother
-LiAnne my good buddy
-WeiTeng my Golden Goat
-Melati good friend
-Jing Wen good friend
-Aaron good friend
and more...i'll continue tmr...

2009-12-24T00:53:00.001+08:00

The Servant Song
Brother let me be your servant.
Let me be as Christ to you.
Pray that I might have the grace
To let you be my servant, too.

We are pilgrims on a journey.
We are brothers on the road.
We are here to help each other
Walk the mile and bear the load.

I will hold the Christ-light for you
In the night time of your fear.
I will hold my hand out to you;
Speak the peace you long to hear.

I will weap when you are weaping.
When you laugh I'll laugh with you.
I will share your joy and sorrow
Till we've seen this journey through

When we sing to God in heaven,
we shall find such harmony
Born of all we've known together
Of Christ's love and agony.

This was the YF Camp theme song, Well I Thank God for the camp as I had learnt a lot from the camp from as simple as getting to know each other better to having bible study together hehe...
...JJ05 signing off...

2009-12-12T21:56:00.000+08:00

Hey Y'all
This month has been very packed so no time to update this blog welll just finished basketball trip and SS camp all at one go so it's been busy and fun, well for the basketball trip i thought the shopping part was fun and meaningful thanks to melati and jing wen for going with me to buy that top though both of u didn't buy much. The basketball match was very well played though we didn't win but we had brought meaningful experiences back to singapore. As for the SS camp well being the 2nd I/C of the group i learned to lead my group of "PEACE" and be patient with them though they sometimes could be a bit out of hands but everything is all well. I want to thank Sarah, Brenda, Xin En, Carissa, Clarissa and Issabel for keeping me company through the camp especially at night when i joked around hehe... and Thank You Sarah for being there and lending me a listening ear when i needed it most... BIG Shout out to My Bangala Gang and to all my Peaces Miss Y'all All !!!

Dear LORD,
I Thank YOU for...
The weather,
The safety,
The Courage to Guide,
The Guts to share,

LORD Help me...
Be A Blessing to others,
Be a Good Sister towards my Brothers and Sisters
Be a Good Example to others
To Have the strength to do Quiet time daily

All this i pray in Jesus name, Amen

...JJ05 signing off...

2009-10-23T13:41:00.000+08:00

Hey, sorry for not updating...well results were great but some needs more work, failed combined humanities so ya need more work and as for DnT, well surprised actually, this proves that i have not been working hard enough for this subject, came in second in class for the paper which is not good enough so must jia yous for next year expecially when it is the "N" levels we aer talking about here, one wrong step and it's the end...well that's all for the updates..
...J.C signing off...

2009-09-27T18:42:00.000+08:00

Today:
I feel transparent in church, everyone in church seem to have a clique everyone but me! For once i just wish i have someone to talk to in church, someone who have something in common with me! i just don't understand why?!

...now feeling damm low..J.C signing off...

Remember...They love UNCONDITIONALLY.....

2009-09-10T21:30:00.000+08:00

This is something I came across on the SPCA website... it struck a chord in me and I felt I'd like to share it with you guys here.

Life Story of a dog:
When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend.

Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" -- but then you'd relent and roll me over for a bellyrub. My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together.

I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides,stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs" you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.

Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love.

She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still I welcomed her into our home, tried to show her? affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy.

Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love."

As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose.loved everything about them and their touch -- because your touch was now so infrequent -- and I would've defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway.

There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me. These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every expenditure on my behalf.

Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you and they will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only family.

I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her." They shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog, even one with "papers."

You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed "No, Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him, and what lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love and responsibility, and about respect for all life.

You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you.You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too.After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked "How could you?"

They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us,of course, but I lost my appetite days ago.At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you that you had changed your mind -- that this was all a bad dream... or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might save me.

When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited. I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day, and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room.

A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood.

She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured "How could you?"

Perhaps because she understood my dogspeak, she said "I'm so sorry." She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself -- a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place.

And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her. It was directed at you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of you. I will think of you and wait for you forever. May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty.

A Note from the Author: If "How Could You?" brought tears to your eyes as you read it, as it did to mine as I wrote it, it is because it is the composite story of the millions of formerly "owned" pets who die each year in American & Canadian animal shelters.
Anyone is welcome to distribute the essay for a non-commercial > purpose, as long as it is properly attributed with the copyright notice.

The decision to add a pet to the family is an important one for life, that animals deserve our love and sensible care, that finding another appropriate home for your animal is your responsibility and any local humane society or animal welfare league can offer you good advice, and that all life is precious. Please do your part to stop the killing,

Please pass this on to everyone, not to hurt them or make them sad,but it could save maybe, even one unwanted pet.

Remember...They love UNCONDITIONALLY, If you give them LOVE

2009-09-09T18:53:00.000+08:00

Went to spca on monday with Lorraine, Natallie, Melody and Chihuahua played with the dogs there and then went to Novena to shop and play and then went to untied square's toys'r'us and played like mad ppl haha here are the photos....

Cute Husky

Smlie:)

1.2.3.4.5 haha can u see 5 ppl?

Advertisment for popular?

Hey i'm just a jacky looking for a home!

Cheese?

Hungry anybody?

Childish much?

that chihuahua keep moving... ):

Today:

2009-09-04T17:13:00.001+08:00

Well here’s my Ca2 results:

English:-57.5
Chinese:-50
Math:-65
Science:-67.5
Humanities:-70
Design and Technology:-88

Well I’m not quite happy with the results, as it is not as good as it was expected to be so ya still need to work on El, Cl, DnT, SS, Geog…well basically everything next week I’m going to spend all my time in the library Yay… will be asking ppl there too…:) well that’s all for the updates tata…

…CCJC signing off…

play ê heavenly music.

2009-08-12T17:58:00.001+08:00

Today something happened in class when i wasn’t there i know ppl are not happy because i did changes to the design but hey paying $20 for a class tee? wat’s wrong with that? and some people framed me for something i didn’t even do calling me “Bitch”? i’m still fine but that person insulted u grandma, at that point of time i really felt like brining a chopper to school immediately to give her a good slashing but then come to think of it now it’s a silly thing to do after all of this i realized that when trouble really comes friends back out but only true friends stand by you through everything, though i’m disappointed that some of this i thought was true and best buds backed out and those whom i never expected would stand by me stood by me yeah i learned my lesson…

A warning to all this blog is mend for my grandma do not insult my grandma because i believe she is up there reading every single word that is in this blog if u are not happy with me come straight to me and talk and stop being a coward!

For now…Cheers to all…still sick but i’m gonna get back on my feet ASAP…

…Chris…signing off…

play ê heavenly music.

Happy belated 15th birthday Jermaine…Today:

2009-08-11T12:31:00.001+08:00

can’t go school today… sad…

cracked a toe nail and came down with throat infection last Sunday , yesterday had a fever about 38 deg today much better but still giddy…how bad could things get? however I'm not going to the doctors! they are daylight robbers…so expensive…i rather stay at home eat panadol…till tmr see how first…

Weekends

2009-08-03T19:20:00.001+08:00

Hey peeps… last weekend was a boom blast… had tons of fun, and went to eat till i vomited…literally…went to city hall where mom needed to take the wires connecting the speakers to the CPU then went to KFC to eat while mom and grandpa went to ting tai fung to eat Chinese food…while we were eating we chat about the past… and compared to now…how i missed the past and will do anything to get it back then rushed to the Chinese restraunt to meet up with mum and grandpa there, they left a bit of food for us to eat . than after a while went to toilet to vomit the vomit even came out from my nose…lols told my sister and brother sis says Gross! Bro say Cool lols haha completely opposite…that’s all for the update…Upcoming Events…JERMAINE BUDDY’s B.DAY its going to be a day of very very fun activities…hehehe *evil laughs*Friends For Sale! on Facebook

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2009-07-26T22:10:00.001+08:00

Went to bottle tree park yesterday, to fish Longkang fishes with Shana sister, Tian Wang Brother, Chowder Chua and Chek Chong Brother caught many many fishes but sadly… all died the following day :X sad… at first sister say need leave at 5pm when we decided last min at 3.50pm in the end went back at 7pm lols we had a fun day managed to watch sunset when we left bottle tree park…. will post pictures in facebook…sorry :(

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The Day Of The Black Sun

2009-07-22T17:49:00.000+08:00

Comuter cannot post pictures again but here's what happened today... well today there was an eclips and there was a cold and wet weather...we were so fortunate to have classmates who have a t.v handphones...we watched the telecast live from channel U in the classroom, Mr Lee our geog teacher also allow us to watch cos it was related to geog but he didn't watch...haha the rest of the ppl crowded at the two small phone screens everybody was squeezing to catch a glimps of it, thanks to zhi guang and joey haha... as we were watching just seconds away from the actual eclips our good english teacher crashed the telecast...so bad...we wasn't able to watch the telecast to the end but on the bright side at least we've witnessed the almost eclips...well after school, we went to the workshop and did our project and finished it right on time...well that's all for the update...

2009-06-03T18:36:00.000+08:00

well most of u might be wondering who this lady is well she is my best friend, the reason this blog was created, yup she is my late grandmother and here are some moments of my past birthdays:
haha well that one in pink is me and the one in my hand is my little bro... surprising ain't it?and that was my 7th birthday...

Somethings that are done Could never be erased like the bad things i've said and done

There's nothing more i can do to make it better....

2009-05-15T18:48:00.001+08:00

Well what is gone has been gone no point tracing around...my handphone is offically lost...well now living life the way it is, having some attitude adjustments big appologise to teachers...Ms tan and Mr tan... for scolding vulgarities in class...i'll try not to do it again...well just finished my LAST paper today, with design and technology. well overall i think that the hardest to pass is always the one that looks easy...for me that is social studies i think it won't do...
Last week my mother and i went to indonesia to celebrate my birthday and mother's day btw thank you aaron for remembering that it was my birthday and giving me a present! ^-^

2009-04-22T17:07:00.000+08:00

Everything Adds up telling me i wish i never knew you at all! I'm trying very hard to forget you but now i realised it's impossible everything i try forgetting you just seem to go down in the drain now i know I CAN NEVER FORGET YOU!

2009-04-14T16:52:00.000+08:00

Well things are now not wad it seems to be.
Everything i used to have seems to be gone...everything!
My best friend, my clique, bf, well i'm in such a confusion
everything seems to go up in smoke. My best bud avoids me,
throws her damm temper at me, shows attitude, she looks like
a complete different person...my clique, we have not been
meeting like we use to anymore...my bf, well its a long story
but we decided to walk our own way this seriously left a scar...
that made me wished i never knew him...well lets not talk about
this anymore...let's look on the bright side of life...last friday went
out for combined class outting it was crazy!!! it totally rocks...
i wish i can organise it a few more times...maybe after exams???
haha great well, going to play my new wii...
...chris signing off!

2009-03-25T19:26:00.000+08:00

7 Things
I probably shouldn't say this,
but at times I get so scared
when I think about the previous
relationship we shared.
It was awesome, but we lost it
it's not possible for me not to care.
And now we're standing in the rain
but nothing's ever gonna change
until you hear, my dear.

The 7 things I hate about you,
The 7 things I hate about you,
ohhh, you

You're vain, your games, you're insecure,
you love me, you like her,
you made me laugh, you made me cry,
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks
when you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know.
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do
you make me love you

Its awkward and silent,
as I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now:
your sincere apology.
When you mean it I'll believe it;
if you text I'll delete it,
let's be clear.
ohhh, I'm not coming back
you're taking seven steps here

The seven things I hate about you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure,
you love me, you like her,
you made me laugh, you made me cry,
I don't know which side to buy,
Your friends, they're jerks,
when you act like them, just know it hurts.
I wanna be with the one I know.
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do
you make me love you.

And compared to all the great things
that would take too long to writeI probably should mention
the seven that I like.
The seven things I like about you
your hair, your eyes, your old Levis
when we kiss I'm hypnotized.
You make me laugh,
you make me cry
but I guess that both I'll have to buy.
Your hands in mine, when we're intertwined
everything's all right
I wanna be with the one I know
and the seventh thing I like the most that you do
you make me love you

Sha, Sha with you do
oohooooh oooooooh ooooh ohhh

Lyrics: Everyday Superhero

2009-03-25T18:27:00.000+08:00

Everyday Superhero
Every morning I wake up just the same
Another victim of ordinary fame
I don't see myself as invincible
It's not true at all

I'm just your average ordinary everyday superhero
Trying to save the world, but never really sure
I'm just your average ordinary everyday superhero
Nothing more than that, that's all I really am

Just a day job that's someone's gotta do
It's kinda hard when everyone looks up to you
Try to make it look easy, gonna make it look good
Like anybody would

I'm just your average ordinary everyday superhero
Trying to save the world, but never really sure
I'm just your average ordinary everyday superhero
Nothing more than that, that's all I really am

I'm just like everybody else
After all the hype it's hard to tell
I keep my game face on so well

I'm just your average ordinary everyday superhero
I'm trying to save the world
I'm just your average ordinary everyday superhero

Trying to save the world
I try to hide my true identity
But no one knows it's only me

I'm just your average ordinary everyday superhero
Trying to save the world, but never really sure
I'm just your average ordinary everyday superhero
Nothing more than that, that's all I really am

I'm just your average ordinary everyday superhero
I'm trying to save the world
I'm just your average ordinary everyday superhero

I'm just your average ordinary everyday superhero
Trying to save the world, but never really sure
I'm just your average ordinary everyday superhero
Nothing more than that, that's all I really am

I'm just your average ordinary everyday superhero

2009-03-18T16:33:00.000+08:00

hey all so long never update liao i think the blog dying...
well i think i'm really stupid when it comes to handling relationship problems, i just don't know how to handle it...i think some of u guys know right? i don't even know how to talk to him when i see him i'm just a bit confused well maybe a lot but that's not the point i really need to talk this one out but how? i just don't want to leave him again but everytime i see him with some girl, jealousy turns up knocking at my heart how? should i give up? i'm just very tired of getting another rejection... ahhhhhhhhhhh i really need to find relief... well that's about it... just a bit upset...that's all...

2009-03-09T18:19:00.000+08:00

wow things has really become so complicated these days i'm just very very confused at things. I wish everything could go back to where they were now i'm very desperate trying to find a answer from myself i really need ppl to talk to...where is everyone when you need them? i feel like screeming!!!!! I really feel like giving up on things i really don't know how to carry the burden anymore i'm just too tired to continue walking on...so i'm trying to figure things out so these few days my temper might be a bit hot...well that's all for now...until then

2009-02-27T17:58:00.000+08:00

updates for this week...

23/02/09[Monday]
school was as per normal than went out shopping for camp supplies with Tan Si, Jass, Sherlyn, Amber after doing so Sherlyn, Jass and me went to Jass's house to cut hair and than went home...
25/02/09[Wednesday]

1st day of deyi camp conquest...
Wow...during the 1st day of camp i taught that it was going to be wow lots of scoldings and stuffs to be honest it was quite sian because of all the drills and stuffs with lost of consequences for our mistakes...as for food it was nice at least better than the school canteen's food just for the 1st day of camp, saw a rainbow while walking. Well during lights out there was lots of noise, girls were screaming because of the bees, talking out loud, and laughing out loud. Finally got to sleep...that's all for that day.
what i learned that day:

All for one, one for all!
TEAMWORK
Do it fast, Do it once, Do it right!
Choices have consequences.

26/02/09[Thursday]

2nd day of deyi camp conquest...
Woke up at 4.30am because of all the noise than got back to sleep and then woke up again at 6am, morning,we did 1000 success claps woo hand aching badly, but i learned to endure through it, breakfast was ok than was morning patrol it is something like amazing race like that. we went out of camp site and headed to the "holy land" to play a game that involves us lifting 3 ppl from point A to point B ok so after that we went to the "lion's den" which was a big Lang kao then while walking along it we saw 4 dead puppies floating along the sewage waste i feel sad for them as i just saw 4 DEAD animals just in front of my eyes and i can't do a thing for them! along the way we ate our lunch which is compact rations, than we went back to the camp site than we realised through the whole thing we walked 4km than we walked the victory march for 7km in total we walked 11km! After dinner P.M Jace call me to attend a workshop, we wrote our goals on a paper and than hold it 90 deg no bending of elbow for 1h wow it was an unforgettable experience. this day i had learned

Goals are easy to set but hard to achieve will you preserver?
Goals are easily shed if not preservered, ppl around will just crush it, in this society its every man for themselves if i can't than i must!
When the going gets tough the tough gets going!
Endure throughout everything.
Let the past go. i cannot change yesterday but i can change tomorrow. forget about the past and move on!
After rain comes rainbow.

27/02/09[Friday]

3rd day of camp

when it comes to enthusiastic hmm well it was ok but well we did slippery slope than breakfast than graduation time on this day P.M jace was not there sad...we took photos and P.M vivian and Enchik Jack wrote on my camp tee yay...lols that's all for now...

2009-02-19T17:54:00.000+08:00

hmm alright hey peeps look i'm updating!!! -_-!

18/02/09(wednesday)

well, cycled in the morning to meet up with Tan Si, Amber, Sherlyn, Fion, Jass than they went to mac to eat, while i went to atm to draw money but could not :( so toped up my ez-link instead went to mac to buy food, cycled to school with Amber standing at the back of my bike than on the way there, my bike's metal piece came off so i pushed the bike to school instead, during physics, mr koh shouted pointing at me to shut up i mean wat's his prob? does he know anything besides shut up? every physics lesson is like this ppl ask me questions wad i reply them got wrong meh? well maybe got lah but does he have to do that? i am pissed by his words he just reminds me of my dad which i hate. Then cycled to jass's house to see Tan Si and Amber cut hair and finally went back.

19/02/09(thursday)

yoyo!! long long time never update XD well, today so many ppl sick, well first was Aaron dear, than was Nixon and after that Guang? than it was camp breifing but unlike the rest of the camps i'm not as excited as i was about it... but though i still hope it would be interesting...stayed back for remidal than last minute told me it was cancled so went home hehe
STILL LOOKING FORWARD TO THE CAMP THOUGH...
well recently i have not been walking close to God i had no time to do my quiet time but i take that as an excuse of running away from God, I'm just so confused now weather to do this or do that i just feel left out in church sometimes u know? well thats all till the next update in around a week's time XD!

2009-02-11T20:16:00.000+08:00

Well i don't know why but everytime I'm at the beach i feel connected with my grandma well, i think maybe its because the beach is the only place that has the big big word PEACE and from the looks at shore the sea looks like the place where the heavens touch the earth. The beach is a super important place for me cause that's the place that i can shout all the anger to my grandma and than turn it into laughter for old time memories when grandma was around well i think grandma just wants me to remember all the good and bad time we've been when we were together grandma to granddaughter! Though she has never brought me to the beach but this is the place i love most. well i hope that i can celebrate my birthday at eastcoast this year well hope it comes true! xD haha well that's all for now...

J.c signing off...

2009-02-11T19:17:00.000+08:00

Yo! New year with new class...Last sunday after going to church, we went visiting Sister Lucy with aunty angela, richard and nicholas at the Good sherperd's center and inside theres a kindergarden but before that we went K.F.C and then took a group photo well here are some photos...

during new year, my dogs came back to stay overnight at my house...

Poppy,

Happy,

CNY video clip project...here are some funny pics of the guys...

Well sorry ppl there are no yu hao's pictures with me...

2009-02-02T17:04:00.000+08:00

Well New Year with New Goals, New CCA, New Position, New friends, New everything...well things are going so far GREAT...in a half good and half bad way...well tmr's the show & tell and i'm a bit nervous about it...last sunday i went by my old house at Teban Garden in Jurong i was quite sad when i went pass the gate because it was a wreck it was trashed like ??? well i was mad at the conditions...i spent 10 years of my life staying there and some fool just buy the house over and trash the place? what the hell! to me that place is Really important to me it contains so much memory of my childhood with my beloved grandma...someday i'll buy the house back just mark my words...well that was the bad part of this GREAT i was talking about... the good part is that well i'm balancing my studies well, its getting back on track i just hope i can get all A's well at least i'll try...hmm well that's all

2009-01-12T18:54:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i feel like i'm screeming at the top of my voice and no one seems to care...am i invisible? or did i do things that make ppl feel very bu suang? i don't know...i'm so confuse i just don't know what to do could someone talk to me i don't think anyone is ever reading my posts i feel confuse in everything i do, could someone help me straighten my path i don't know what do i want to do in life i don't have anyone to lean on i feel like i've fallen from a very high place and could not stand up nobody wants to help me...Oh God please help me i'm so confuse please tell me what to do, help me get up on my feet again

Am i a bad preson? would anyone give me a sceond chance at life my cca is ruined, study bad, everything i used to have is left with nothing here's why... Grandma left for heaven,before that i gave my grandma a bad impression of me i hated myself for that, a boken family that used to be a F.A.M.I.L.Y but again gone there are alot more things that i've lost but that's that i'm done doing stupid things .

2009-01-05T19:23:00.000+08:00

I'm just so confused i don't know where the confusion is coming from but it feels like suddenly i can't differentiate Foes from friends, good from bad, could someone just tell me what is the right thing? i'm just like a wave in the sea now, very lost, following the wind not knowing where i'm headed to i know that sooner or later i'm going to land at a island but donno where. Chinese new year is coming but i don't know if i should buy new clothes... Everybody is buying branded and fashionable clothes must i follow everybody to buy? that day i went out with a couple of my buddies, they were looking at some clothes that were too ex for me to buy i feel very out...well its not that i'm saying bad about anyone i just feel down, out, and lousy...

2008-12-31T20:05:00.000+08:00

The Year...
let's wrap up this year and look ahead of us ya...
hmmm...this year leh... say short not quite short say long not quite long, lols because sometimes when I'm having fun doing something i tend to forget time don't you tend to do that as well?

@ The Start of Year 2008
Well at the beginning of this year it was well kinda hard for me cause i stop going to my father's house the reason was i felt like i was something like a football being kicked around the football field u know imagine having 2 houses you may think that i may like it but no i hated it it was like two sides, black and white fighting to tell me what to do i was so confused on what to do especially when temptations arise. Well after that it was a full burden for my mom having to work even when she was back home, i felt very guilty for seeing her everyday facing the computer till almost 1 am in the morning in order to provide us with the comfortable lives that everyone is living right now.

School Life
Than school was quite ok things sometimes happen quite unexpectedly like when u never know when there will be another attire check or something like that. This year well the thing i hated most about school was DETENTION i mean who likes it? u just sit there and copy lines its a total waste of time well this year i was more of a bad person than a good one in school and not a very good Christian cause my walk with God had drifted apart but now i'm trying to do my quiet time everyday but i still hope that next year I'll be better no matter in studies, quite times and others

My Holidays...
Well during the June holidays i went to work as a ice cream seller walking door to door of H.D.B blocks it was very tiring well that's all for the June holiday. The December holidays were ok lah i went to china to visit my relatives and to cure my back bone prob the doctor said that i had 2 back bones out of place and had to use force to push it back in place and now I'm back better now. There i went to check if my legs were ok the doctor said in order to do it i had to do a blood test the next day this i was thinking like mad before the test...i could not sleep thinking of that needle this i have to thank Rachel for helping me overcome my fear of needles... she told me that it was ok that it was only an ant bite no pain no feelings lols thanks sis this means alot to me. Well after the blood test the doctor told me that it was fine that i have to eat some medicines wait corrections its alot of medicines, but what's the diff? its still the same...

My Tributes
I thank all my close friends who have supported me when i lost my perspectives, and visions of my life. Sometimes life could be like a maze but if u straighten/loosen up a little and change
perspectives of live i'm sure that it won't be that confusing as it is right now...

Special thanks to:
-Rachel who has always been like a big sis to me...

-Lydia who has always been a good buddy...
-Hannah who has always been a very good buddy...

-Beatrice who has always been a great buddy...

-Jasmine who has always been my funny buddy...

-Jaime who has always been my cheerful buddy...

-Ruth Low my haha buddy

-Jolynn Tai my haha buddy

-Ruth Yap my attentive buddy
-Beatrice Tan my hyper buddy

-Brenda my haha buddy

2008-12-22T22:38:00.000+08:00

hiaz well time flies real quick, in an blink of an eye 30+ days have passed last sat went for blood test well it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be tmr going to take blood test results donno what it's gonna be but well just leave everything in Gods hands! quite nervous for tmr...well that's all for now...
J.C signing off

2008-12-16T18:56:00.000+08:00

Haiz...a blink of an eye and POOF...29days passed...went to xia men last last week the beach was so b e a utiful the shopping mall there was huge and very crowded ...too bad i did not bring my camera to china or else there will be loads of photos to share with u ppl...learned alot of new things here and very eager to find out what school will my sis be going to...hopefully Deyi sec...well hard to say anything could happen. Feel very guilty not going to church 4 so long. Last sunday my uncle, aunty, and some of his friends brought me to the amusement park...first time sitting on some of the more scary rides...well we sat on some rides than my aunty draged me to my worst nightmare...the inverter, it flips 360 degs at a very high speed after the ride i think that it was not so bad but next day i found bruises on my leg, shoulder, and neck...hiaz now at least better well if u guys donno what an inverter its something at the escape theme park that goes 360degs well u get what i mean right? well that's all i've gotta say gotta run bye!...

2008-12-01T17:07:00.000+08:00

wah so scary sia today saw someone kill chicken sia sooo scary... on the other hand china don't have butter (sad...)for now its 2deg...fell sick three days ago than today go see doctor come back watch t.v than learn Chinese

RECOMMENDATIONS:
Drama Series: Tears Of Happiness (幸福的眼泪) if u guys like romance and human drama than this is the best bet...i grantee u will cry one...well thats all for now goodbyes
jia jing...Signing off...

2008-11-20T13:32:00.000+08:00

I really don't feel like living anymore i respected my mother so much i did what was right that doesn't throw her face but than what did she do in return she threw my face out of the window...i thought i could start a fresh in china no one knew so much about my background which means i could be a new person with new characters again but what did she do??? she called here and ask them to find me a new Chinese tutor what the heck??? make all my relatives here look down on me. Now my sis the PSLE result out, t- score 216, go express study four years of secondary school so what??? i admit my learning speed is slow but why must she compare me to her is she so good??? i make this loud and clear I DO NOT NEED A BLOODY CHINESE TUTOR TELLING ME WHAT THE HECK TO DO so now u feel me?

2008-11-15T12:07:00.000+08:00

Yo!peeps just landed in china yesterday @1pm at china,xia men phew thank God for the safe landing...while on board the plane, we met a huge huge turbulence which make the whole plane go up and down i nearly vomited, waited for my uncle for like 30min than we took a 30min ride to zhang zhou yesterday met up with my relatives aunty brought me to shopping wow never had so much fun for a long long time...that's all for now update later

2008-11-08T19:02:00.000+08:00

yo peeps in less than one week i'm flying to china to stay...don't know why i'm not excited about it haiz...maybe is because i'm going to miss u guys or that i'm going to miss all my year end camps...wadever the reason is i also don't know but i'll be back on 26/12/08 but i'll try to update the blog while i'm in china if possible. ok that's all for now good byes
J.C signing off...

2008-10-28T18:20:00.001+08:00

Finally the Year has ended!

The holidays are here!

and i am bored,-_-!

facing at the com all day,

thinking back at the year so far,

For God my lord has carried me through

the ups and downs of life!

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It seems like time everything has gone back to normal or even better. Thank God, when i received my results i was glad that i passed all my subjects finally the way the year ended has turned out the way the year started, but what was not meant to be mine was never going to be mine...let's just say that God had all this planned...well this year a lot of things has been happening around the house and in my life...i stopped going to my dad's the whole year so that i could live a stable life. I didn't want to be like a soccer ball being kicked around that wasn't a nice feeling at all and it turned me into a more aggressive and stressed person. From here onwards i don't know what's in the path of my life as it is dim all i know is that God will be the light of my life that will light up my path of my life. But for now i just wish for a change next year a change for good that i want to kick away all my bad habits and change into a new person.

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Here are some short messages to all my buddies out there:

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To Rachel that has been a Big Sister to me:

I thank God for having you, for helping me through the year no matter bad or good things Thank you for being like a big sister to me giving me advices, cheering me up and lending me a listening ear when i needed, sorry that i couldn't make it for church camp but hope to see you there the next year ok?

Thanks Sister!

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To Beatrice My awesome buddy:

I thank God for having you as my friend, hope that you will enjoy the S.S Camp sorry that i cannot join you guys maybe next year i can join u guys for S.S camp. Hope that you can get the subject that you want for next year!

Thanks Buddy!

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To Joanna my Golden haired partner:

My also very violent partner, i hope that next year we will be in the same class but bottom line hope that u can go to the subject that u want. You brought funny moments to my life and taught me the word violent :X lols hope to see you next year!

Thanks Partner!

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To Melody my Very talkative friend:

Hey friends fight so no more hard feelings ok? Fight hard, but for the things that you want! I hope that u could go to the subject that you want to go, you had brought funny moments to my life

Thanks Buddy!

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To Amanda my Police Car:

Hey Smarty hope that you will get into the subject that you had chosen its ok lah don't be up set if u can't get into A.maths. i enjoyed the times we had planning for the chalet in the June holidays hope to see you next year to plan for the next chalet in June 09' ok?

Thanks Ma Da Chia!

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To kelvin my very silent friend:

Hey my very very quiet friend hope to see you next year in the class that you want to be in! hope that you could talk more and don't be so Emo...

Thanks Friend!

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To Wei Teng My Golden Goat:

Hey my another violent friend! Hope that you can get to the subject that you want to be in. You had taught me wad was determination and violence :X lols

Thanks Golden Goat!

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To Chee yang My eight legged buddy:

Hey thanks for lending me a listening ear when i needed hope that you will continue to work hard and continue learning the guitar. Hey When there's a will there's a way right? YOU my friend, has taught me a funny word it was... Horny:X lols!

Thanks Buddy!

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and more...

-Zhi Guang my Very talkative buddy

-Yong Rui my Very Funny Friend

-Rigina

-Sherlyn

-Charlotte

-Linette

-Sandra

From Church:

-Jasmine my funny friend

-Jaime my cheerful friend

-Jolynn Lim

-Ruth Yap

-Ruth Low

-Jolynn Tai

-Stephanie

-Brenda

To all...THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES!!!

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Special Thanks to all the teachers who have taught me:

-Sis Alvina(Sunday School)

-Sis Shelia(Sunday School)

-uncle Andrew(guitar)

(1st Half of year 2008)

-Mrs Chu(Form Teacher+Art)

-Mr Leong(Co Form Teacher+D&T)

(2nd Half of year 2008)

-Mr Ali(Form Teacher + Litrature)

-Mdm Farharna(Co-Form+Art)

(Subject teachers)

-Mr Yeo(English)

-Mr Ali(Litrature)

-Mr Yong(chinese)

-Mr Lim(D&T)

-Mr Cheong(D&T)

-Ms Rashidah(F&N)

-Mr Lee(Geography)

-Ms Tan(Science)

-Mr Tan(P.E)

-Mdm Norpipah(history)

-Ms Phoon(Maths)

-Mdm Farharna(Art)

-Mrs Chu(Art)

2008-10-17T20:28:00.000+08:00

To Everybody:
What have i turn myself into? i set rules on this blog but did not follow them ...I disrespected everyone, my beloved grandmother whom i had dedicated this blog to and mostly i had disrespected God. To all readers of this blog I deeply apologise for all the vulgarities and bad things that I've said i on this blog, i hope u will accept it but if u won't accept it then i won't beg u for ur forgiveness cause i know that I've hurt some people especially Melody its not because I'm afraid of channice or anything but just that i can't continue this thing for long seeing the whole class turning upside down.

To Melody:
I deeply apologise for all the mean things that I've said to u i take all the things I've said about u back it's not because of Channice or anything its just that i cannot stand people insulting my religion u can say everything bad about me i don't care i know I'm a Bad christian say wad ever u want but when u insult my religion that's it i know that I'm bad in my attitudes so i will apologise to u in class on Monday i don't expect u to forgive me and i won't beg as well. so that's all I'm going to say in front of all readers now
I deeply apologise to u so I'm sorry...

To Grandma:
Dear grandma I'm sorry i turn out so bad disrespecting u, scolding all the vulgarities in the blog i wanted to be good and keep writing good things to u but things just turn out wrong I'm sorry for doing so many bad things i hope u r enjoying life in heaven and hope that u are happy

To God:
Dear Lord father, please forgive me of my sins as i have done many things that does not glorify you i hope that you may forgive me as i continue to pray for my father to come back to you please bring him back to you as i do not wish to see him get hurt though i on the outside say that i hated him but in the inside i wanted him back...back to you for 6 years he has not played his role as a father to me but it was him that brought me to this earth...so i pray that u may forgive me all this i pray...Amen.

2008-10-15T14:53:00.000+08:00

Yo peeps! just got a new hairstyle so hope u guys won't laugh! Haha today is a Almost day u know why? I'll show u why...my exam results...

English - 81/120
Maths - 49/100
Chinese - 64/130
Science - 69/100
Literature - 37/75
Art(drawing) - 61/100
History - 31/80

u see i Almost passed maths, Chinese, literature which all are short of one mark to pass, but its ok overall i think i passed everything...everything except...history -_-! yup its a very almost day...but still i thank God for making this all come true he does things always with a purpose and a plan!

*just rained in the afternoon... guess i'll just take a nap...Zzz...Zzz...Zzz...

J.C Signing off...

2008-10-13T16:33:00.000+08:00

learn from yesterday......
live for today...
hope for tomorrow...

I think its time for me to do some soul searching...here is an e-mail that someone send to me:
Read only if you have time for God

Let me tell you, make sure you read all the way to the bottom. I almost deleted this email but I was blessed when I got to the end God, when I received this e-mail, I thought I don't have time for this. And, this is really inappropriate. Then, I realized that this kind of thinking is...Exactly, what has caused lots of the problems in our world today. We try to keep God in church on Sunday morning. Maybe, Sunday night. And, the unlikely event of a midweek service. We do like to have Him around during sickness...And, of course, at funerals. However, we don't have time, or room, for Him during work or play Because that's the part of our lives we think We can, and should, handle on our own. May God forgive me for ever thinking That there is a time or place where HE is not to be FIRST in my life. We should always have time to remember all HE has done for us.Jesus said, 'If you are ashamed of me, I will be ashamed of you before my Father.'

Yes, I do Love God, HE is my source of existence and Savior.

He keeps me functioning each and every day. Without Him, I will be nothing. But, with Christ, HE strengthens me. (Phil 4:13)

THE POEM

I knelt to pray but not for long,
I had too much to do.
I had to hurry and get to work
For bills would soon be due.
So I knelt and said a hurried prayer,
And jumped up off my knees.
My Christian duty was now done
My soul could rest at ease.
All day long I had no time
To spread a word of cheer.
No time to speak of Christ to friends,
They'd laugh at me I'd fear.
No time, no time, too much to do,
That was my constant cry,
No time to give to souls in need
But at last the time, the time to die.
I went before the Lord, I came,
I stood with downcast eyes.
For in his hands God held a book;
It was the book of life.
God looked into his book and said
'Your name I cannot find.
I once was going to write it down...
But never found the time'
*Make sure that you scroll through to the end.

Easy vs. Hard

-Why is it so hard to tell the truth but Yet so easy to tell a lie?
-Why are we so sleepy in church but Right when the sermon is over we suddenly wake up?
-Why is it so hard to talk about God but yet so easy to talk about nasty stuff?

-Why is it so boring to look at a Christian magazine, but yet so easy to look at a nasty one?

-Why is it so easy to delete a Godly e- mail, but yet we forward all of the nasty ones?

-Why are the churches getting smaller but yet the bars and dance clubs are getting larger?

-Do you give up?

Just remember God is watching you. Prayer Wheel-Let's see the devil stop this one!

Here's what the wheel is all about. When you see this, say a prayer for anyone that u think of ...
That's all you have to do....
There is nothing attached....
This is so powerful....
Do not stop the wheel, please....
Of all the free gifts we may receive, Prayer is the very best one....
There are no costs, but wonderful rewards... GOD BLESS!
May God keep you and bless you. If this doesn't give you chills, nothing will...this message is very true. Hope you are all as blessed as I was from this story. I wonder how many people will delete this without reading it because of the title on it?

There once was a man named George Thomas, pastor in a small New England town. One Easter Sunday morning he came to the Church carrying a rusty, bent, old bird cage, and set it by the pulpit. Eyebrows were raised and, as if in response, Pastor Thomas began to speak...'I was walking through town yesterday when I saw a young boy coming toward me swinging this bird cage. On the bottom of the cage were three little wild birds, shivering with cold and fright. I stopped the lad and asked, 'What you got there, son?' 'Just some old birds,' came the reply.

'What are you gonna do with them?' I asked.

'Take 'em home and have fun with 'em,' he answered 'I'm gonna tease 'em and pull out their feathers to make 'em fight. I'm gonna have a real good time' 'But you'll get tired of those birds sooner or later. What will you do?'

'Oh, I got some cats,' said the little boy. 'They like birds. I'll take 'em to them.'

The pastor was silent for a moment. 'How much do you want for those birds, son?'

'Huh?? !!! Why, you don't want them birds, mister. They're just plain old field birds. They don't sing. They ain't even pretty!'

'How much?' the pastor asked again.

The boy sized up the pastor as if he were crazy and said, '$10?'

The pastor reached in his pocket and took out a ten dollar bill. He placed it in the boy's hand. In a flash, the boy was gone.

The pastor picked up the cage and gently carried it to the end of the alley where there was a tree and a grassy spot Setting the cage down, he opened the door, and by softly tapping the bars persuaded the birds out, setting them free.

Well, that explained the empty bird cage on the pulpit, and then the pastor began to tell this story.

One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting. 'Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there. Set me a trap, used bait I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all!'

'What are you going to do with them?' Jesus asked.

Satan replied, 'Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!'

'And what will you do when you get done with them?' Jesus asked. 'Oh, I'll kill 'em,' Satan glared proudly. 'How much do you want for them?' Jesus asked

'Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you. You don't want those people!!'
'How much?' He asked again. Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, 'All your blood, tears and your life.' Jesus said, 'DONE!' Then He paid the price. The pastor picked up the cage he opened the door and he walked from the pulpit.

Notes:

Isn't it funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell.

Isn't it funny how someone can say 'I believe in God' but still follow Satan (who, by the way, also 'believes' in God).

Isn't it funny how you can send a thousand jokes through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing?

p.s:
Guys, if you receive this in your email, is not because I want to just forward any email to you. But because I thought of you when forwarding this. That you are one who may need to read this as well.. like me..
Be blessed and have a nice day.... :)

2008-10-10T11:17:00.000+08:00

Sianz...nothing to do for the next 5 days just staying at home to slack around the exams were great but i think i will fail chinese...btw i'm going to china for a few months...not yet confirmed yet...yup that's all for now...

2008-09-08T21:19:00.000+08:00

wow...time sure fly fast...its already 4 years since you had gone...it seems like just yesterday that you told me you'll be with me day by day watching me grow but why??? why did you stop being with me at the age of 10? did i do something that is very very wrong? why must you go just like that? i tod you were as strong as a horse and would not go just yet but why? why cancer?....plz tell me...

2008-06-18T23:20:00.000+08:00

Hey, how r u so far it was very long since i had talked to u like this...i missed u so so so much a lot of things happening at home...i stop going to dad's place already the beganing of this year...i know its not very nice to ignore my dad but hey he couldn't give me the respect i needed...yup i joined band and plays the snare drum in a drumline section but recently i had not been performing well on the snare and all the sir and madams look down on me so i kind of lost the spark i needed to play the instrument if u were here i think u would advice me not to stand down but since i lossed to spark i think there is no use in doing the things that i have no intrest in i'll continue this tmr...mom's nagging me to sleep liao

2008-06-17T13:18:00.000+08:00

This blog is made specially for Ang Siew Kim my beloved grandma that left this world at 2004 june...i hope that i can send all these blog messages to the heaven 4 u to read grandma...

I MISS U SO VERY MUCH...

I LOVE U!!!